I’m going to start writing again. I haven’t for ages. Since we found out I was pregnant. It took some time for my brain to accept the huge and amazing thing that happened quite by chance on Friday 15th December 2017. As you know, dear reader, our plan was to give IVF one last go … Continue reading Pregnant
My Comfortable Spot
This week I am going to have the final test in the series we have been having since we miscarried in July. They are checking to see if there underlying reasons why my miscarriages have happened. The procedure has been planned so that my consultant can take a good look at my uterus with a … Continue reading My Comfortable Spot
Yesterday I cried in the Tattoo Shop. It wasn’t from the pain of the actual event. Last week I had sat still all day for new artwork without missing a heartbeat. I mean, it’s not that I find it painless, but once you are in it there is a hypnotic quality to the buzz of … Continue reading Tattoo
We went for a consultation yesterday. Since my last miscarriage I have been under the care of the miscarriage clinic at New Cross Hospital in Wolverhampton. The care I have received there has been from our perspective mixed in terms of how useful and supportive we have found it to be. So over the last … Continue reading Private
I have always loved the water. When we were little my mom and dad used to take us swimming in the rivers around North Wales. My parents were fearless when it came to water. My mom was an elegant swimmer. My dad was just like us. A strong energetic swimmer forever racing, doing handstands, splashing … Continue reading Swimming
Waiting … …
There has been a bit of a lull in activity since we got our results… You find this when you are trying for a baby. There are a lot of long silences between punctuated moments. Good and bad. Those times where nothing is happening and you are just waiting for the next milestone. That for … Continue reading Waiting … …
It’s really hard for me to be completely honest about my current situation even thought that is the purpose of this blog. When I look back at what I have written it all feels very surface. Let’s stay positive. Let’s keep on moving. My first two blog entries explained the nuts and bolts of what’s … Continue reading Nightmares
Me and My Mojo
So, step 1 towards my future life, once I got my head back into a space where I was able to think rationally about what that was to me, meant for me some kind of journal. I love lists. I write lists every day and tick things I complete off one by one. It soothes … Continue reading Me and My Mojo
Why A Life Less Forty-Something?
Somewhere in the middle of these two vivid apparitions is my new life, and over the next few months I mean to find it.